I've done it !!! What has she done, you ask?

Well what I've done is buy a proper fair dinkum corset. And it looks just gorgeous...as do I in it if I must so myself.

I've always wanted a proper corset...one that pulls my waistline into that gorgeous feminine waistline. But I resisted (until now) because I just didn't see how and when I'd wear it...well other than in the privacy of my bedroom which is just not good enough.

And then I came across "corsetted_girl's" flickr page...and I just knew I had to have one as well. She wears corsets with "normal" clothing, including jeans and I think it's a great look. Check her out at http://www.flickr.com/photos/corsetted_girl/

So I popped around to Gallery Serpentine and after wonderful friendly and helpful service from the lady running the shop, I bought a "Victorian Under Bust Corset". That's it in the photo.

Hope to have some photos of me in the corset quite soon...and I hope to find the time to go out dressed in it (and wearing other clothes as well...ie I won't be in the nude) even sooner.

Yes, I said I'm putting "Dee" on the back burner for awhile...and I am due to work load and work pressures...but Dee is always in me and with me and I just could not resist buying this corset.

Hugs to all you lovelies,
Dee

A need to simplify my life means....

well, the need to simplify and uncomplicate my life means that I have to put my t-girl activities on the back burner for awhile.

I have in fact already put my en femme activities on hold and other than a brief outing one evening and a few brief moments online, I effectively haven't been expressing and participating in my usual en femme activities. The lack of it has however been causing me some anxiety and stress and I think it's time to accept that I should formally put it on the back burner until such time as my time availability returns to normal. When will that be? I have no idea...the past 18 months have been crazy crazy and I can see that lasting for the at least the next 12 months, and possibly even for the next 3 years.

This decision of mine does not mine that I forsake my transgenderism. I am transgendered, will always be transgendered and I see that aspect of me as a gift and an advantage in the way I live and conduct my life. I also don't intend to "purge"...I'll kep my clothes and makeup for those ocassional opportunities that I may find over the next one to three years.

I will miss my many friends...in fact, I already miss all of you who I have neglected and not seen or communicated with over the past months. That's the saddest thing about being in the closet...the complications and limitations that are placed on these TG-related friendships of mine.

Hope to be back and active as soon as possible; but for now my work-life is all consuming and the few spare moments of free time that I have needs to be kept for devoting to my family-relationships.

Bye for now, but not bye for always.

Heaps of hugs and love to my very special friends. You've all contributed to my happiness and knowing you has helped me get through some very difficult and traumatic times.

End of my Canberra-era

My Canberra-era has probably reached a closure point.
For the past 15 months I've been travelling to Canberra on business on a very regular basis...at least monthly and often for many weeks in a row. It's been a wonderful opportunity for me to be "Dee" and go out as the total and true Me. Sadly my need to travel to Canberra this regularly has come to an end. It will be sad not to regularly see the many people I've become friends with. No more "resident tranny" at Knightsbridge Penthouse!!

My last night turned out to be a bit of a fizzer...but it was still a fitting and happy ending.

I wasn't sure whether I'd have the time to go out...work work work...damn work!! So I didn't make any arrangements to meet up with anyone. I was working in my hotel room trying to meet a critical deadline. As I often do, I was progressively putting on my makeup while I was working...work for a half-an-hour, then do the foundation...work for another half and hour and the eyes get done...and so the transformation and work progresses side by side.

By 9.30pm my face was done...still heaps of work work to do, but I was sick of it. Besides, this was my "last" night in Canberra, so how could I not go out.
And my face was PERFECT...the best I've ever done my eyes and the lips were just perfect perfect as well (I guess practice does make perfect...eventually).

The outfit...new rouge longsleeved t-shirt top from Ojay, jeans, stillettos, black short trench coat (new off eBay). Gorgeous (if I have to say so myself)!!

Run the gauntlet out of the hotel and hope like hell that I don't bump into a work colleague who often stays at the same hotel. Into the car (red V6 3.0 litre Jeep Wrangler...very feminine...lol) and off to Knightsbridge Penthouse. My fav bar as regular readers would know. As the resident-tranny I know the owner and most of the bar staff and many many of the regular patrons. Always a wonderful evening chatting to many different and interesting people.

Major disappointment!! I get to Knightsbridge Penthouse and it's closed!!! Major damnation!! I won't get to say "Hi and Bye" to Bria and my many other friends.

What now? Back to the lonely hotel room? No way!!

Off to Tilley's...quiet at Tilley's; almost closing time there. And it's not really a venue where you get to meet and talk to strangers. Anyway, had a glass of wine...was found somewhat unusual and amusing to some young student chicks...not in a horrible way, but they kept glancing at me and whispering. No problem for me...I'm afterall an exhibitionist at heart.

Got bored there, so went to Trinity Bar. Great bar, although I have run into some narrowminded macho young guys there in the past. No problem tonight. Another quiet glass of wine on my own. Then got bored there as well. Into the ladies loo for a "retuck" and to touch up my lipstick.

Where to now?
Ah, let's head into slightly more "squares-ville" and show the "normal" people what a real live tranny looks and acts like. Its now 11pm and I'm thinking of one of two options...either go for coffee and dessert at a trendy (and expensive) restaurant which I've often thought of having a meal at; or go to Muddle, a trendy bar for the "30-40 somethings".

Got there and the restaurant was closing up...so it's option 2, Muddle.

Walked into Muddle and it's PACKED!! You could hardly move in there. A quiet unobtrusive entry is impossible. Squeeze squeeze "excuse me, excuse me" through to the bar area. But everyone was ever so polite...mainly young professionals (well young by my age-standards) and the guys ever so politely moved aside for me to squeeze through...just as they would for any lady trying to get to the bar. Nice feeling and nice manners displayed by all of them. Just normal!! And that's how I like it. Guys didn't give me a second look; ladies did. Funny about that...the women always "check me out". But then I guess women always check each other out in any case.

Delicious creamy cocktail. Most enjoyable, but again very "quiet" in that it isn't the type of bar where strangers talk to strangers...unlike Knightsbridge Penthouse where I've always ended up in delightful and interesting chats with total strangers. Interesting how an owner (Bria at Knightsbridge P) attracts patrons that reflect her own friendly open communicative manner.

The evening ended quietly as it started...finished my cocktail and headed back to the hotel. made it safely to my room without encountering the nightwatchman or my work colleague.

Not the "last night" I had in mind, but still a very very happy evening and a contented Dee.

PS. Forgot my camera at home...damn...would have loved to have had pics of me with my perfect makeup and gorgeous outfit...ah well, the evening will simply have to be recorded in my memory.

Rock Chick in Pink...messing around at home

So today I decided to take it easy; do a few personal things and work at a leisurely pace at home...the past month (year? year and a half?) has been crazy crazy from a work perspective. I therefore felt I deserved a break...and I do!!

First thing...off to Double Bay; coffee and some emails...then to Sharon-Lee Studio to have my eyebrows shaped...wonderful and relaxing and Natalie (who knows that I'ma tranny) did a wonderful job as always.

Next of to Surrey Hills to look for a ring...couldn't find one I liked, so off to Paddington. Still couldn't find one, so headed home.

Mmmm...shaped eyebrows so off course I had to get dressed and do my makeup.

I've got this yearning to play in a rock band as a tranny. But I'm not going to subject the public to my guitar playing...happy to subjecth the public to me as a tranny, but a completely different thing for them to have to listen to my musical abilities.

The next best thing was to do a few poses with my guitar.

Most enjoyable...and at least it helps me to dream sweet fantasies.

For those interested, more pics on my Flickr site

Celebrity Look-alikes....where's Elle MacPherson?

Juest did this really funny celebrity look alike thingie that I saw on Kat's blog. Mine is hilarious.

Here's the link to mine.

Mastered the art of painting my nails...almost

Travelling on business again. So last night I got to my hotel, unpacked my goodies, got dressed up in my femme clothes, makeup and all those things...and the settled down to paint my finger nails. And I did them perfectly...and that with my cheapish practice nail polish. Felt really proud and off course I thought my nails and fingers looked just beautiful.

Tonight, same thing. Came home (well to the hotel), got dressed up partially...which means light makeup, lippie, girls jeans, high heels, cami top...oh yes and earrings and bracelet...and off course perfume...just loooooooove perfume.

Anyway, sat on the terrace of my room with a glass of wine and painted my nails with my fav MAC nail polish...Mmmm, not as successful this time. But I've learnt that some clear varnish over the top afterwards can hide a multitude of bothch ups.

So all round I'm fairly pleased with my nails.

Then I felt like a drink...cool bar just down the round from the hotel. What to do...take off make up and nail polish? No way!
Well I did take off my lipstick, earrings and bracelet and threw on a man's sweater over my femmie camisole. Oh yes, and switched the high heels for a pair of Doc Martins.
Of to the cocktail bar...girls jeans, foundation, eye shadow, mascara, nail polish and my girl's "mood" ring.

And nobody even made a comment...damn...I'm such an exhibitionist and a comment would have been great!!! LOL

Sat and drank a lovely glass of wine, flashing my hands around in a very feminine manner...and listened to a group of chicks discuss their shoes. All very relaxing and interesting. Mind you, they were discussing heel heights...mine are much higher than any of them were comfortable with...but then what does comfort have to do with it in any case.

Off to bed now. Still have the nailpolish on though...hehehe....love it!

Blissful Canberra Evening

Had a great evening out with my friend Szusza last night. We met at my fav cocktail bar, Knightsbridge Penthouse (wonderful-sweet-friendly-kind-welcoming-Bria's bar...thanks Bria, you always make me feel welcome).
Anyway, great chatting as always with Szusza. From Knightsbridge we walked across the road to a French restaurant and had dinner...and then back to Knightsbridge Penthouse again for more drinks.

At 1am (or 1.30am) Bria said "Ladies, do you mind if we close now." Ever so sweetly said, but yes it was time to head home.

I always enjoy an evening out in the company of Szusza. Szusza is my transexual friend who lives in Canberra. I admire her enormously. She lives a full and complete life as a woman, doing normal "womanly" things, joining and being accepted at a prestiges business/political/networking club in Canberra...and none of this was easy...Szusza had to bravely go out there and show society that she is a normal regular woman who deserves respect and acceptance.

Szusza was the person who took me out of my comfort zone by extending my public outings from the safety of gay clubs into the real world of "regular" restaurants, clubs and bars. For that I will always be grateful to Szusza and without her firm encouragement I probably still wouldn't be as comfortable and confident going out in the real world.

Thanks Szuzsa and thanks for being a good friend.

Wonderful evening and it was a blissful sleep...after taking a few quick (bad) pics of me in my new Ojay denim pencil skirt (the photos do no justice to how cool and sexy the skirt is) and my new red velvet jacket.

Ojay Girl

As some of you know, I'm a big fan of Ojay (an Australian clothing boutique). Most of my outfits are bought from Ojay and the ladies at my the two stores I usually frequent know that I'm a crossdresser and they're really helpful and totally cool with me trying on clothes in the fitting rooms.

Well, Ojay have just taken a step up in my esteem with their new website. Their new Autumn/Winter collection has suggested "looks". Perfect for an evolving girl like me! You go into their "Collection" tab, the select (say) "skirts", find the skirt you like, click on that and then it gives you a look to go with the skirt. Great stuff and very very helpful. I've already selected several looks that I like. And it's amazing how many of their looks already exist in my wardrobe...or maybe it isn't amazing seeing as I tend to buy all my things from them.

I guess you can call me an Ojay-Girl!
Maybe they're looking for a new model...Mmmmm.